fantacylia

Sometimes I wonder


or often do I wonder


about myself, things around myself, everything that goes on within myself


and everything that happened lately 


really, i've got lots of questions
think i'm lost somewhere in the ocean
yeah, lost
not exactly happy w/ my current landing but can't think of having any major changes
stranded, really.
i'm like bombarded w/ tasks everyday so that each weekend is like a great relief which only makes me wanna slouch at home and do nothing 
(which is impossible cuz you still gotta clean the house and do this and that...)
(another disadvantage of living w/ parents...tsk)
funny how i'm always trying to avoid responsibility while trying to convince others what a reliable person i am
i think "passion" is the keyword here

which reminds me of university life, and all the performances throughout the time
always so devoted, always wanting to do more
thinking about it night and day, refining gestures and tones
it's all about passion, how much love you put in
i can't say i dislike the job
but really, if chance permits,
i long to do something different, something i really want